share the emotions and events with me because you are important to me:)

Winbledon:)))

2009-07-05T08:02:00.000-07:00

I am watching the match now! adrenaline is pumping through my blood at tis very moment! Tis qns hav been in my mind throughout the whole 2 hr;" will andy win his 1st Winbledon title?" hahahaha..I hope it is a yes cos i bet wif someone tht he will win.My money and my pride are at stake!!!:(((
He is in real good state today.. playing rather well, so pls keep up with that momentum. Jia You, Roddick!!!!
Close shave! the ball went out, so he get his pt. Yeah!
Many must be asking what am I so interested in the match rite? Cos my dad got me to watch the semifinals on fri... make me excited.
OkOkOk... i have to enjoy my match now. I have faith in u tht u will clinch the title 2dy! Ganbatte!

2009-06-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

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He is damn hot.... look exactly lik the shows but more tan lor:)))

I hate my life:((((

2009-05-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

A typical Yu Xian day: STUDY then STUDY then REVISE. Such a dull day... and u knw wat i am sick of it. I just hope that it is a nightmare and i will wake up frm it now. I read an article that singaporean children are very stressed and unhappy. I am a good example. Even my foreigner frens say tht life as student here is bad. I m realli sad lor. wat if i put in tremendous effort in studies? my grades will not improve. The phrase harvest your sweet labour had neva applied to me before. some ppl who dun study ended up getting nicer grade than me. I m so dishearted now. Life is unfair...lik it always hv been. I am not intelligent but i am very hardworking. i admit to tht fact. I tried my very best for everything... except Nafa lah. wo wen xin wu kui le. all i hope now is that shen will see my effort and reward me wif wat i deserved.

wat's up,man!!!

2009-04-17T08:00:00.000-07:00

I found this online... very random,rite?? I am considering if I shld watch this drama when it come out. I think it is quite nice... maybe... but once again, adapted frm manga. I have bad experience of taiwanese drama adapted frm manga cos the storyline is too overboard or ending too clique. wat matter most is that it is not out yet.. so i can consider for the time being:)))

To Duokexi xiaojie: ni de lao kong zai zhe li hen suai leh... yao hao hao de ai ta bu ran ta hui li ni er qu. ni men hen xiang pei... yao xing fu ya!!!

我真正的世界

2009-04-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

在此时此刻，我心中有许多茫然。现在正在拼搏的我，对自己的目标产生陌生的感觉。我对自己失去了信心，怀疑自己是不是想像中的一样。我的梦想可以实现吗？我能让我妈为我骄傲，让我自己对自己感到开心吗？看着我座上的书本，我不知从何下手了。我已经很尽力的再学习，温习，但每一次成绩都令自己失望，我又名落孙山了。那种反复失败的感受就像有人把你的心践踏了。现在的我已经失去了斗志，心里也十分沉重。我要到哪里找回那曾经的发光的信心与激励？

my skin

2009-03-10T03:28:00.001-07:00

hello... Hope u like the new skin

hello

2009-03-10T03:14:00.000-07:00

I change my blogskin again! Hope all of u will like it... especially those bbf fans. i must go study alr... see u soon>>>

boys before flower

2009-03-08T10:10:00.000-07:00

hi! i m back aft a long time... it is late but i cant sleep cos i m hving stomach flu now. I m so in love wif bbf !!!! it has strong cast, handsome guys, nice feelings, nice scenes.... just a excellent drama:)))) however, one of the cast was reported to commit suicide yesterday... very sad... treasure your life no matter how deep shit you r in.I just hope nothing will happen to the cast or the show... let them hv happiness n peace when they bring us so much joy n excitement.... blessed them!!!

I love you!!! Gyo Jun pyo, song yi jeong, ji hoo subae, yo-yo man. take care. My frens: shayna, cel mei mei, tengtengsisienen, dameimei,jacq,joyce and the rest..( i cant thk) I will always love you wif all my heart and soul... take care, ok?

reflections

2009-02-13T06:58:00.000-08:00

i m going to blog in chinese...

我好抱歉，使我误会了你，希望你不要生的气。我当时是一时之气，才会把你写成这样。我只想告诉你我很爱你。最近，我有两位好友即将翻脸，我真的很难过。他们所面对的是我在去年与另一位好友之间的感情决裂了。我很清楚那种痛苦是无法形容。我不希望他们走上我这条路，不要他们像我之前那么伤心。我曾经想与那位友人复合，他爱面子的我确没有这么做，满后悔的。我不知道她还想与我做朋友，因为她好像已经忘了我，交了新朋友。

ok, i shall end here cos my show is here now....

2009-02-13T03:13:00.000-08:00

icture time part 5

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picture part 23

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picture part 3

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Relationship

2009-02-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

Recently, i found out tht many things around me have changed without my notice... so secretive and slow.

I have not talk to someone(miss y) whom i was very close to for a long long time. My childhood companion(miss a) have distanced away from me... maybe i was the one tht distance away?!

I have no control over these changes and i m sad abt these changes. However, everything now is inevitable and planned for me. So, i just hv to adapt to it , rite? We were very close but the feeling of friend and family have long faded as we grow up. I love her... but it is hard for us to return to the past when we can share anything under the sun. I wanted to tell her in face tht I can longer share wif her as i dun feel secure anymore but i m afraid to hurt her. So, i hope Miss A doesnt force me to share stuff against my will. I make new group of friends tht i love alot and i hope tht she will use them to say that i m biased and tht i ignore her. I need to socialise and tht is my freedom. It does not mean tht i m longer yr friend becos i make new, closer friends. WE are friends but no good frens as before! Do u understand?

As for miss Y, i mention before in my posts... I have decided after many suggestions and analysis of my peers n close frens( qiaokemeimei:). MY DECISION: leave the problem cos i knw tht i dun hv the ability to solve it in tis critical year. Most importantly , i need time to continue searching for wat i actually want cos i believe tht we are not suitable cos we do face changes in the journy of life. I will not blame anyone for this consequences, but is tht our fate hav ended. I cannot accept the major changes in you , so i will step out so tht we will feel better and happier. there is no point having a relationship tht will not reap but continue the sorrows and negative emotions.

I will like you to be happy ....

aknowlegements:

Dorcas Shayna Chua for giving me support all the time and chat wif me when i am feeling sad
Sarah teng for accompanying me home everyday and work wif me in many projects. Her funny expressions always make me laugh. lastly... teaching me stuffs lik maths
celeste Ong( jiejie) for tolerating me in my messiness , nonsense and loud noises. She always provide me wif good ideas n advices. she is always there for me in times of blurness, dilemma, stress-ing. I always Love her ...
SzeYue for being my relationship advisor these few weeks. sorry to bother u during tis hectic time
LIYi the mmah... sharing my feeling wif u is the best cos i get comfort and it helps me to organise my feelings and reality.

picture time 2

2009-02-02T03:07:00.000-08:00

picture time 1

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Introduction

2008-12-03T00:08:00.000-08:00

Disneyland Paris:

This is the place i will be going on the 24/12. i m so looking forward to it now. Anxiety is flushing into my bloodstreams. I made a checklist to buy stuff back for my frens tht is stuck in s'pore and something secret for myself. I always dream living in such casltle when i grow up. Omg, i m getting so childish now. come on, yu xian, ur alrdy 15, stop stop the baby dreams!!! Neva mind, i will be a mermaid there if there is a opportunity.

ppl: please tell me wat you want or i will get you chocolate. so please send me a note asap, alrite? btw, the chocolate is awesome:>

i m back!

2008-12-02T22:14:00.000-08:00

let me talk abt wat i hv done yesterday... I went to make my i/c cos i turned 15 liao. i took 1 hours frm my house to lavender. i was pissed then cos i walked miles and the mrt was super crowded and i was packed like sardines. i waited 1h + for my turn and took some stupid photos. when is my turn, i was burning cos the person say i cant change my address cos my parent havent change. Her tone was not very nice that make me very irritated. she told me to come another day. I dun want to travel another 1 h again.
Luckily, i went movie wit dorkie and tengteng that make me a little happier. We watch the wild child that was incredibily nice. Some ppl thought it was rather bimbo, but i like it! i thk that freddie guy is hot! teng teng dun agree:( Then, we took the shuttle bus to city hall. during the journey, we had an enjoyable time of quizzes. i went to buy boots while dorkie and teng teng go home by MRT.

END OF THE STORY

recovering...

2008-10-26T00:47:00.000-07:00

hello! i m back again:) i m sorry for the errors in my blog recently as there was some malfunctions over the blogskin... but is solved. hahaha. btw, anyone is willing to offer help to install a tag box for me. thk in advanced, kind souls.
ok... i hv been rather down recently( i bet anyone knws why... do u?!) i m trying to recover frm all the hits i hv gotten over the weeks. i m getting better now(gd news rite!!)

my personality?!

2008-10-10T10:07:00.000-07:00

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian

You're a natural leader and a quick, logical decision maker.
Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to achieve them.
You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.
Your high energy level means that you are great at getting things done!

In love, you tend to bring stability to relationships.
You feel comfortable being in charge, and you enjoy being a provider.

At work, you take charge. You thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules.
You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

How you see yourself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener

What's" Your Personality Type?

i think it is really true abt me... wat u think?

depression.... i m coming

2008-05-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

it had been a bad day for me. I was suffering frm severe depession last nite tht i had sucidal thoughts. Why am i so stupid? why do i fail in everything i do, such a failure lor:( i feel so zi bei in front of my peers n my family. I have been studying so hard but my effort doesnt paid off at all. So wat is the point of studying hard.?

I am finally back!

2008-05-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

it seems to be a long time since i had written. this is gg to be a short post cos i need to return 2 my work lik soon. hahahaha.. wat shld i share... i need a long long long hols . can anyone give me lik 3 mths of not waking early in the morning n face animals everyday. ppl are rather unhappy wit me when i dunno the reason. maybe i am poor in handling relationships. hao shi bai:( After today's oscar programme, i hav more confident but doubt in my interest n abilities. i m always in the state; blur,over-stressed. when can i even escape from them? maybe the time come only the end of my unglamorous life. there are happy stuff cos my mum decided to buy me a nice bag n i hv such an beautiful nest. I shall enjoy my life until 2mr cos my tuition is staring next week liao. hv to jia you~~

ANTI SOCIAL-TO-BE

2008-02-22T05:01:00.000-08:00

i think that i need some couselling now:( I was really terrified by this teacher tht i cried in e canteen lor... (gigi n holly knws wat i talking abt) i doubt he knws tht his glare is very fierce cos he enjoys using it ... hahaha
i keep forgetting where i left my stuffs over these 3 days tht many is rather pissed by me. hence,i apologised to those ppl. smiling 1/2 of a day in your life can extend yr lifespan to 3years! so keep the smile on yr face.
btw, thanks gigi for helping me to voice out abt tht person on yr blog! there is sill many things i shld be happy for!
ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND ! I LUV U:d

yuxian's day.... badbad one

2008-02-20T03:48:00.000-08:00

hello! i am so crazy with bullfighting! mike he is super cute and hot. i am being dian by him in the show. yi sheng xue, ni bu yao zai tou, yi wei ni zai wo de xin li le; classic dui bai:} mike has wonderful complexion and his face is like flawless.His figure is like very slim with high hips. what a mei nan lor.
i think my classmates knows that i had this bad fright this morning cos i cant find my biology paper! i was like flipping through my files and books until after school, without remembering that i put it inside my front compartment.

we are getting back our a-math paper 2mr! i got a bad feeling lor: i may fail or just pass ba! i pray hard tht i can get a b3 lor.

i hv 2 go cos i need 2 study for my history now......

byes

i m back again.....finally

2008-02-05T22:41:00.000-08:00

sooooo sorri for not updating cos i m busy these few weeks:<> . i shall count down to the day, hahaha...
Since it is new year's eve, i shall thanks some ppl;

geraldine; thanks for all the time tht u have been there for me, and not leaving me when i need u the most! U have been a wonderful friend to me:> you must always keep the postive thinking in u cos i will need it when i am down, hahaha... I want u to knw tht i will always be there 4 you and love you in my way:>>>>> jia you le, ying ying!

h0lly;we hav known each other for like .... 6years! omg, it is like so long lor! in my opinion, u r just like a big sister with a toddler's heart, always finding things to play n imagining things( mr chong>> giraffe) however, u neva fail to cheer me up when i am depressed by things. dun be so stressed up by those homework cos thy dun really matter n will not affect yr o'levels. i want to tell u tht" live for yr dreams and neva give up cos u r powerful!" believe in lord tht can always bring comfort 2 u when u r in a dead end. I LUV U WITH ALL MY HEART:)

sze yue; it is fun to hv u with me for 2007! shocked to see yr name here? i like to be u becos we luv to watch those drama during hols or free time! we luv MIKE HE, RITE? although u r rather evil sometimes but i like you and yr smile cos they are really beautiful. " play hard, study hardest, zong zong" keeEP POSTIVE!
i shall stop here cos my mum is coming! i shall continue the list 2mr! i promise>>>

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!! I love U, ppl:)))))

2007-12-27T10:37:00.001-08:00

HI PPL! i m just bored here so i thought of blogging wat flashed my mind for the past 2 days. without any reason, i asked myself wat actually is love? does true , everlasting love exist in this world? you might thk tht it is a lame question but anyone knw the right answer to it? doubt so cos even my dad cant really answer my qns. Aft much thoughts, i thk tht love might be just the expression of feeling to another living matters . it exist between every human being, even amimals, so it is a very normal thing. But the problem is tht why when i say "i love you" it seems so bad in some ppl eyes? i thk it is normal to say it to your frens , family or bf( if you hv one now) cos you hv feeling for them tht you want them to be aware. is it wrong or bad to say this 3 words to your pets? i thk it is rather funny to say it to your besties n ppl around you looked at you.

The existence of true love? i m truly unaware abt it cos i hv neva dated anyone, even i hv crushes! But, based on dramas, books and adults , it existed but the duration varys cos it hv to depend on individual. hahahaha. i dunno and no comments cos i m not familar with anything about boy-girl relationship except for frens lah. i thk i will hv to ask more ppl to tell me more then i will make a conclusion.

i m back again....aft 2days?

2007-12-27T02:50:00.000-08:00

hi VIPS! i m back to blog at this dinner time cos i got to turn back 2 finish my 5 pieces of chinese hw( those who havent finish their hw, pls hurry cos it is time-comsuming) i took 3 hrs to finish 2 pieces of ri ji ! do you believe it? i still hv to organise my eng phrases cos it is with somebody, so it mean tht i got to finish 2 more chinese hw before i can rest!:( i m not a SUPERWOMAN! ANYONE SAVE ME? SOS? neva mind cos everyone is rushing their hw, hahahahaha

i dun feel like gg back to sch becos i thk i can study best with myself! wat a loner i m, ppl but i cant help it ! my parentsh will not allow me to home school cos it is too expensive for them liao. i feel tht i need more courage n confidence to go on cos i dun hv the feeling to contimue my journey. do u understand ? i knw you dun cos i dun:- ppl, pls give to me if you hv cos it is urgent!

today, is a great day for me cos holly is back! i miss her alot although i spoke to her recently. i sound wrong?! neva mind , i hope to see her soon! " holly, remember to call me? "

my mum is here! so got to go back to my chinese hw now! bb my VIPS! ALWAYS LUV YOU:()

2007-12-25T02:30:00.000-08:00

merry x' mas to all! it is nice to receive well wishes frm ppl n frens cos it makes me happy. let me talk abt wat i hv done yesterday. firstly, i watch my drama show; it is so sad lah cos the gal give up her love for the guy to allow him to become an artist. i cried super bad cos it is damn sad. Then around 5pm , my mum bring me out cos my sis n bro went to attend a x'mas party of their frens. my dad join us for dinner n we eat at a japanese restaurant. let me tell you; jap food really cost a bomb! we just hav grilled fish-head, prawns, vegetables n the bill is $200++, omg! i thk tht s'pore's cost of living is increasing every year at a rapid rate. u knw wat; by the time we grow up, a bowl of fishball noodles will cost $15, but your salary might not increase as fast as the materials increased. hahahaha:) i thk i m mad! Aft the expensive dinner, we went to listen to songs in hotel lobby and the drinks there is quite expensive, but reasonable for the hotel lah.

although, it is 25th dec ( x'mas) but i dun feel the presence of the festive celebration. maybe, i shld seek it out in orchard rd cos there is gg 2 be celebration taken place there! my mum may not allow me to go cos she worry abt my safety. i need to start doing my hw cos i hv not been for last week. i hv the motivation to do so ! i m good student!

time to return back to my zuo wen now! bb

HELLO! EVERYBODY!

2007-12-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

I thk i shld get a blog cos most of my frens hav a blog liao! let me see..... emmm... my url is promptin everyone to have a dream and work for it... evn it seems impossible! hahahahaha.( have confidence , ok?) also, pls dun demand too much cos i m a busy woman..hehehehehe. i will try my best to keep this blog alive, i promise! i m quite angry cos my com rebel few days ago, spo i m using my mummy's com, whichis rather slow n difficult to use. hence, dun find me in hotmail cos i will not be there until my com is fixed.

if you dun knw, i moved! i am stying at my new hse since the first week of dec. it is better n nicer than wat i hv imagine, esp my bedroom n balcony. use yr imagination to visualise my rm, except geraldine cos she visited my hse liao. camp at my hse if you want cos i welcome it ! i shall end now cos i m busy with my packing. will be blogging soon! wait for me, ok ?