I have no control over these changes and i m sad abt these changes. However, everything now is inevitable and planned for me. So, i just hv to adapt to it , rite? We were very close but the feeling of friend and family have long faded as we grow up. I love her... but it is hard for us to return to the past when we can share anything under the sun. I wanted to tell her in face tht I can longer share wif her as i dun feel secure anymore but i m afraid to hurt her. So, i hope Miss A doesnt force me to share stuff against my will. I make new group of friends tht i love alot and i hope tht she will use them to say that i m biased and tht i ignore her. I need to socialise and tht is my freedom. It does not mean tht i m longer yr friend becos i make new, closer friends. WE are friends but no good frens as before! Do u understand?

As for miss Y, i mention before in my posts... I have decided after many suggestions and analysis of my peers n close frens( qiaokemeimei:). MY DECISION: leave the problem cos i knw tht i dun hv the ability to solve it in tis critical year. Most importantly , i need time to continue searching for wat i actually want cos i believe tht we are not suitable cos we do face changes in the journy of life. I will not blame anyone for this consequences, but is tht our fate hav ended. I cannot accept the major changes in you , so i will step out so tht we will feel better and happier. there is no point having a relationship tht will not reap but continue the sorrows and negative emotions.

I will like you to be happy ....

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